thanks to all you folks who cared so very much that I was alive on my birthday.
Christy, wouldn't drive 15 minutes but could send a text.
Marvin, wont talk to me or meet up with me but could send a text.
Bobbi, forgot and remembered a couple of days later but really couldn't be too concerned.
Sandy, barely know her but not only did I get a text but she bought me the only present I got. (I actually liked the present.)
To all you guys I work with;
Not a single one cares a lick because I asked you NOT to do one of those stupid meal days. But you insisted. So my question is, who was the meal for? Not me.
If you want to get me a present, ask me what I want. Getting a POC that you couldn't care less for is pretty offensive.
Denise, the only person who really went out of her way.
Jeanette, well, you remembered I had a birthday but that's as far as it went.
So thank you, all of you. For the most part, save for two people, you ensured Sunday was as miserable as any birthday I had yet.
You are all so kind.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
A constant struggle
It's been a while since I have posted here. But what else do I have to do?
Things are going pretty bad lately. Yes, I know. I am going through all this to better myself and I knew it would be hard. But come on!
Three pay checks in a row I am over drawn. It would be one thing if it was because I was wasting money but that's not the case at all. It's all going to bills. Bills for criminey sake. I still can't even pay all of them.
Let's add on top of it a birthday this past Sunday.
Can you say I should have just commited suicide rather than actually suffered through that tragidy? I had two people totally bail out on me. I understand emergencies but one bailed because they didn't want to come to where I was, 15 minutes from them, the other bailed because, well, they just didn't want to do what I wanted to do. Wow. Nice to know people are so willing to sacrifice for me.
Now lets add the over drawn account, no birthday present for me, an over due water bill (the water has been shut off because of lack of payment if you are wondering) and so little gas in my car I am pretty sure I will run out either on the way to work or on the way home. Either way I run out.
Now we also have to add that my tags are about to expire and I can't afford to renew them. Hell, I can't afford to get auto insurance to be able to renew my tags. All this wouldn't be a big deal except the place I live has the WORST public transportation. Almost non-existant. I'm so screwed.
Here's the kicker.
I get paid tomorrow but this check goes toward rent. With the over draft and the fee charged I will have enought to pay what is owed on the water bill, and pay the rent. But I won't have anymore than that. No gas, no tags, no food. That's it.
I hate my life and really have no idea why I don't just step in front of a semi and make it all a little easier. Oh, wait I know why. Because i will survive the accident and I don't have health insurance. *laughs*
Things are going pretty bad lately. Yes, I know. I am going through all this to better myself and I knew it would be hard. But come on!
Three pay checks in a row I am over drawn. It would be one thing if it was because I was wasting money but that's not the case at all. It's all going to bills. Bills for criminey sake. I still can't even pay all of them.
Let's add on top of it a birthday this past Sunday.
Can you say I should have just commited suicide rather than actually suffered through that tragidy? I had two people totally bail out on me. I understand emergencies but one bailed because they didn't want to come to where I was, 15 minutes from them, the other bailed because, well, they just didn't want to do what I wanted to do. Wow. Nice to know people are so willing to sacrifice for me.
Now lets add the over drawn account, no birthday present for me, an over due water bill (the water has been shut off because of lack of payment if you are wondering) and so little gas in my car I am pretty sure I will run out either on the way to work or on the way home. Either way I run out.
Now we also have to add that my tags are about to expire and I can't afford to renew them. Hell, I can't afford to get auto insurance to be able to renew my tags. All this wouldn't be a big deal except the place I live has the WORST public transportation. Almost non-existant. I'm so screwed.
Here's the kicker.
I get paid tomorrow but this check goes toward rent. With the over draft and the fee charged I will have enought to pay what is owed on the water bill, and pay the rent. But I won't have anymore than that. No gas, no tags, no food. That's it.
I hate my life and really have no idea why I don't just step in front of a semi and make it all a little easier. Oh, wait I know why. Because i will survive the accident and I don't have health insurance. *laughs*
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